Tsunami-XII

I feel numb. Right beneath the surface. It hurts deep inside. I cant get out. With walls surrounding me. I feel trapped, so useless. I wish my life could end. I feel sick. No one cares. I have a heart full of pain. And head full of anger. No one the, besides me. I feel lost in the dark. Barely see the light. Too much pressure to take. Im falling apart. The fact is, I dont care anymore.

How do you expect me to When all I know is What you tell me to I thought you knew How lost I am Within these maddening thoughts I can't escape. I am so afraid I am out of touch I can't go on blindly like this anymore I cry out but my words are lost within When all of this is over, I wake up And wondering if this was a dream.

When I pretend who I am not suppose to be I keep my thoughts buried deep inside of me I can't let it all out, because no one wants to listen to me I keep holding on this negativity, because i don't want to listen to myself I feel that I am losing part of me Feeling like an empty shell I am sick of how everyone justifies me When I am around everyone just keeps looking at me Feeling so alone No one really cares So I go on pretending... Its hard to fit in

I never ask for much All I ask for is a little attention I don't want to fade away But how everyone treats me I feel there's not much to live for I feel that everyone hates me Because I am there for someone else's problems to take I take in these words and it makes me go blind These words I hold on for so long can't let it go You're killing me like a cancer, right here... I keep taking in these words and everything you given me just kills me YOU'RE KILLING ME! GET AWAY FROM ME!! YOU'RE KILLING ME!!!